Anxieties

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I've always been rather worried about anything and everything. I usually hide this fact very well nowadays cause I know it's not productive and not normal. People don't get married thinking that they could lose their spouse to an accident at any time or disaster could strike at any moment. It's not easy to deal with the monsters in my brain, but I manage for the most part. The other day my son's teacher asked me to call on students and let them read their journal entries. Not a big deal right? That's easy for you to say... so whom do you call on so it doesn't look like you're favoring one over the other? Is it fair to go from font to back? Oh no, I don't remember some of their names... are they now gonna think I don't care about them as much as the other's that I do call on by name? And all the while I'm thinking all these things, I miss half the things these poor kids are saying. What a drag!!! Funny thing is.. when I go do Karaoke and I sing in front of a ton of people, I don't get anxious much. Weird huh? When I run late (to my standards, which is usually still plenty early), I get anxious and if someone else is control (driving me) then it's even worse. Most people have no clue I go through this and I like it that way, cause I'm sure if the teacher knew that I would get anxious about this, he would've never asked me and I would've missed this opportunity. Besides, if I would show my anxiety, I would make my son even more anxious as well. All in all, thoughout my life, I got pretty good at hiding it.
When I was younger, school was hard for me. I worried that kids would know I'm different. I can see my youngest go through those same things and it's eating me up inside. I know what it feels like. Anyway, I know that anxiety can get a lot worse. Dibilitating as a matter of fact. I once had a friend that had a panice attack at my house and just collapsed. After having had lice several times due to no fault of my own, I got so anxious about my getting them that I litteraly went crazy. I have been in the hospital for a panice attack as well and noone really knew what was going on with me.. go figure! The following site is a very interesting read and helps rationalize anxiety a little.

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This website has great information on anxiety and how to deal with it.
Anxiety Information and Cures

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