March 17th, 2007
Well, well, I'm 5 days overdue and still nothing. I'm getting anxious to hold my little baby bear! He's giving me problems on my leg.. he's pushing on my nerve on the right side and so I can barely walk and it's painful... I've been getting Ultrasounds every week for the last 3 weeks now and now it's going to start every 3 days. Myabe he's going to come on my grandma's 100's Birthday after all. She would've been 100 on March 19th if she was still alive. That would be really cool. I really don't want to be induced though.

Jenny is going to get married in August. I'm looking forward to her wedding. I'm hoping Kris will turn out to be the husband Jenny wants him to be. Tommy is sure a joy. He was born February 6th. Josh was born February 4th. He's so little! They're both cute little Baby boys though. Make me want mine even more. I've had a really healthy pregnancy up until now.. well, I'm really health still, just in a bit of pain now for these last 2 weeks. Oh well, it'll soon be over.

Donny is so good to me!!! I really couldn't ask for a better husband. I feel so bad at times, cause he's doing so much for me, but I think he likes being needed! He's going to be such a wonderful Daddy. All 3 (Jessica, Emily and Tydon) are in the midst of swinging again. It all started with Jessica. She was a straight A student in the beginning of the school year and now she's a straight F student. We decided to take her off of all the meds cause the Lamictal wasn't helping anymore so they put her on Depakote and that was bad for her liver, so now she's detoxing until the 23rd and then we're going to try her with just the Lamictal and see how she does. The other two aren't that bad, but you can tell spring is coming and they're all getting a little manic. I just hope for Jessica's sake that the meds will help again and that she will snap out of her grandious behavior. I need to figure out a way to handle her without getting angry. It's not good for me and it's not good for her. I hate yelling at her, but she's so oppositional right now it's hard not to. She thinks she's all that and a bag of chips! Oh well, if nothing else she will cycle back out of it in June. Tydon is really aggressive again in school right now.. typical for this time of the year..he's still not on any meds besides the Tenex and I'm planning on keeping it that way too. He only has a short cycle when he's like that and he should be ok again in a few weeks. He's not too bad at home, so it's not all that difficult to deal with. Emily, well she's just getting into the food, so I made some changes and now they can make peanut butter sandwiches whenever they get hungry and the basement door is always locked and that's where I keep all the sweets, so now she at least can't eat herself silly anymore. I check her room more frequently so she doesn't end up with molding stuff in her room and that should do it for her... we really have no other behavior problems with her, even in school. I'm thankful for that.

Well, that's pretty much a good update for now. Hope that Baby is making an entrance soon..can't wait to hold him!!!

April 16th, 2007
My Baby Boy is born!!! Well, Benji is already 3 weeks old now. He's already sleeping 5 to 6 hours in a stretch at night and he hardly ever cries. He even smiled at me already. I love him so much and I'm so thankful that God has given me this opportunity to raise this little bundle of joy! He's such an angelface!!Benji was born on March 23rd, 2007. He weighed 10 lbs 2 oz and was 21 1/4 inches long. The birth itself is not something I really want to remember much, since I wasn't dialating after 5 cm and needed a c-section and also because Benji got distressed and ended up eating Meconium and needed to be in NCU for 3 hours. Then in the hospital we didn't have too much fun either, cause my milk didn't come in right away and they ended up pretty much starving him cause they didn't want me to feed him formula until I had a break down. Then I decided enough is enough and I went home Monday instead of Tuesday and things started to look up. Benji is now back with his weight and weighs 11 lbs 2 oz. At his 2 week check up he was already 22 inches long. He truly is a blessing!!! Jenny had her little baby boy on February 4th and he's adorable! Tommy weighed 9 lbs 8 oz and was 20 1/4 inches long. Mandy had her baby boy on February 6th. He weighed 7 lbs 2 oz and was 21 1/4 inches long. He has the biggest bluest eyes!!! I finally bounced back too after having a little bit of problem thanks to the ephedrin they gave me. I think I had a flare up of my Pseudo tumor, but I didn't get it checked out... I figured it would go away by itself since it was medication induced and I think I was right, cause the headaches have been a lot less lately. I'm glad I have my little tyke! He's a wonderful addition to my family!!

April 27, 2007
Today Benji is 5 weeks old and weighs exactly 12 lbs. He's pretty much outgrown half of his 0 - 3 months outfits. He's getting to be a big boy. He smiles a lot now.

April 28th, 2007
Today Benji smiled at his Daddy for the first time. He's such a cutiepie!!!

June 2nd, 2007
My my, time sure flies. Benji is already 10 weeks old now and he can reach and do so much. On his 2 months check-up the Doc was amazed saying "I never seen a child like this!" and "Normally you don't see this (talking about his trying to sit up) until they're 4 or 5 months old." Benji is definitely ahead of the game. He's reaching for toys now and "talking" back. He's so amazing and I love him soooo much. He's a joy and I'm so thankful I got the opportunity to be his Mama!!!

June 10th, 2007
Benji is growing so fast. Today he pulled a toy to his mouth and started chewing on it. I know that is way ahead of schedule, but I don't really know when he's supposed to do that.. perhabs at four month? He's a real talker too.. he doesn't even cry anymore, just whines... he's so wonderful. He keeps me going too. I have lost a total of 21 1/2 pounds since I had him. I love taking him for a walk cause he enjoys it so much!!! I'm growing restless at the house though. I don't get enough done fast enough. I know, I know... I have a little baby and I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but needless to say, my type A personality understands that, but doesn't live by it..lol. I can't wait till the yard is done so I can tackle my next project. Wish I would get money together faster so I can pay my debt off so I can do the next thing...lol. Well, time will let me do all those things sooner or later!!! and I am enjoying my little one while I'm at it!

August 14, 2007
Time sure flies. Jenny got married to Kris on the 3rd. It was a beautiful wedding. I'm in the process of copying the DVD's I made so everyone can see the wedding, even the people who couldn't make it. I might send one to Doug. He really doesn't deserve to see how beautiful his daughter was (and is), but on the other hand, he really needs to know what he missed. She deserves having a father who actually gives a damn. Anyway, everything was so beautiful! I took so many pictures! Since the party was in Sparta, Kris' Mom did a lot of stuff, like getting everything set up. I brought my system over there though. Aaron came to it as well. I'm trying to set him up with Sabrina. It seems like they like each other. Sabrina needs a good guy in her life and Aaron needs a girl to build a life with. The other day I had to buy a new computer. My motherboard fried on the old one. I got one with the new processors, but I'm not too happy with it. It's a lot slower than I thought it would be. I think it's slower than my e-machine was and it was 4 years old. We're going to get Siding for the south side here in about 4 weeks. We also think we figured out why our house gets so hot during summer. Our attic isn't ventilated at all. So.... we're going to have to put vents in before next summer, that's for sure. I'm so happy we're almost done with everything on the house. The yard looks so beautiful..it's just upkeep on it now until we're getting ready to do the drive in a couple of years. Benji is growing up so fast. He is going to be 5 months next week and he can already sit up without being held. He does a lot of stuff he shouldn't be doing until he's 7 months old.. He's still 2 - 3 months ahead of schedule. Looks like we'll have another early walker on our hands. He's eating like a pro now. So far he's had sweet potatos and carrots. The day after tomorrow he'll start with peas. He's such a happy guy!!!

August 25th, 2007
Benji is now 5 months old and my pride and joy. He's putting life into perspective. I really need this little guy in my life right now. God sure knew what he was doing, that's for sure. Tydon has been very busy stealing everything from everybody. He's been in the office stealing stuff he doesn't even know what it is (a Hitch) and he's been in our bedroom stealing condoms. He's stolen two lighters and lit paper on fire..in the house. He stole candy out of the drawer and hot chocolate packets out of the kitchen. He also took Donny's lunch yogurt out of the fridge. He even took a ketchup packet out of the basement. He stole from Lisa too. He got it good this morning and then we called the police on him. I told the officer I didn't know what to do with him anymore.. Not even the spanking seems to work. The officer said there was nothing wrong with the spanking.. but I really don't think it's working. Short of abuse I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I feel like locking him in his room with a potty chair the whole time I'm sleeping, but that's abuse, so that's out of the question. I don't have the money to have someone watching him all the time. And here I thought the girls were bad. Time to go to bed now.

October 7th, 2007
My, how time flies. I can't believe Benji is already 6 months old. I treasure him so much!!! I think I do want another child in the future. Maybe we can start trying again when Benji is going on 1 1/2 years old, so the Baby will be born after he's 2. I would love to have another boy. If I get pregnant again I'd probably will have a girl, but that doesn't keep me from praying for a boy. A girl would be nice too since then I would have my little Cassandra, I just don't think I want to go through raising another girl.. they're so hard to raise. Who knows if I'll even get pregnant again. I sure love the little guy though.. can't even think how life was before I met him..lol. My birthday was pretty much uneventful since we're not doing anything until Tuesday. I was surprised to get a card from Aaron and a call from Alice though. I think Aaron is thinking about coming up here in November. Lisa, Brandon, the kids and Donny and I went to the Dells for 2 days. It wasn't really for my Birthday, but I treated it as such. I had a blast going shopping, that's for sure. I can't believe how close we're getting to finishing the house. ONly another couple of years and we'll have everything done, including the Jaccuzi. I'm so looking forward to that. Only one more side of siding left. This time around I was not happy with the "Your Home Improvement Company". The guy who sold me the siding is now being prosecuted for falsefying my signature. My God what an idiot. I told him I wanted a years free financing or I wouldn't do it, so he gives me other financing and signs my name on the papers. I mean what was he thinking? I wasn't going to look? Now I'm getting 800 bucks back from the company for the interest and stuff I would've not payed if I would've had the one year free. They fired the guy.. they should go after him. The co. thinks that the finance co. will, but I doubt it.. they're not out of any money. I did call the cops though and I will press charges. Heck yeah!!! He needs to be behind bars where he can't do this again to somebody else who might not be as fortunate as I was.
Tuesday we're all going to Tequillas for David and my birthday and then we'll exchange presents. I'm looking forward to giving David his present. Not sure what I'm giving him yet... I have all of Christmas already bought for him too.

November 3rd, 2007
Benji is already 7 months old now. It's incredible how smart he is. He's walking along his walking toys and the furniture. He knows how to sit up by himself and he crawls when he absolutely has to (he rather stands and walks). He does say Mama and I heard him say Bye bye today. He also claps and kisses. He's so incredibly cute!!! I think we may try for another one when Benji gets closer to 2 and potty trained. He's so smart he shouldn't have a problem with that. I am so glad we decided to have another child. It's just so much fun to have him and he is a big time stress relief! He's the balance I needed. He balances the other 3 out. This morning we had another scare! When Donny came home form work and I woke up at 8 am Tydon was gone. Tydon thought it was school today and that he missed the bus, so he took off in 30 degree weather. We were searching for him everywhere and couldn't find him. He came home 1 1/2 hours after he left and he was half frozen. Thank God nothing bad happened to him. Jessica is getting really mouthy lately, but I guess that is normal for her age too.. she's also really mean to Emily and Tydon at times. It can drive me up the walls. Tydon is still getting in trouble a lot in school. They took him off of his meds again now to see if there's any difference. Well the meds sure didn't seem to help any!!!

Andrea from Germany got me hooked on a website called "Wer kennt wen" and I found a bunch of people I used to know back when I was a Teen.. kinda cool!!! Willy and I have been e-mailing each other and he gave me Bongo's e-mail.. all people I used to know. Of course I've still been talking to Andrea, Bernhard and Nicole. Trying to get Nicole and Bernhard to go on that site as well. At the same time Paul got a hold of me too.. been a while since I talked to him too.

Donny and I are still very happy. Sometimes I think I neglect him nowadays cause of Benji, but he keeps assuring me I don't. I love the way he is with Benji. It's so different being with him having a baby than the way it was with my ex and David and Jenny. It's a joy to see Donny with Benji and watching him play with him! I'm so fortunate to have found him and have the life I have now. I'm so happy nowadays! Life is good! God is good!

November 10th, 2007
Donny and I are talking about having another Baby. I want to wait until Benji is 18 months old to try though and I want to go to the OB/GYN to get checked out and have a physical as well. I also need to lose at least another 10 lbs before then, which shouldn't be too hard if I put my mind to it. It's just so much fun having Benji. He brings so much joy into our life!!! He is getting so big! He's only 7 months old, but he sure tries walking. I'm sure by the time he's 9 months old, he'll be walking! He is doing things a 9 - 10 months old would do right now. I have a splitting headache again today. I think it's every time I put my hair up, that I end up with a headache like that. It's weird! Jessica is in full swing again. My goodness! It seems like one of them cycles out and the other one cycles in... there's always one of them that causes trouble. Jessica is being a real Bitch to everyone right now. She has an F in Band cause "she doesn't like the teacher". We also have a Foster again. She's really nice. I'm hoping we'll have her for a while!! We're getting closer to being done with the house. If there were just more hours in the day..lol. We're in the process of putting up the shed so I can empty the sunroom. Once I empty the sunroom we can move the stuff out of the garage, have the sunroom's siding done and then get the jaccuzzi. I'm soooo looking forward to that jaccuzzi. If we can't get it done by January, I might wait till next year though, just because then we can get the end-of-the-year sale and get big discounts. We'll see though. It would be nice to relax in the hot tub on a regular basis. We're now getting massage and Chiroprachtic adjustments on a monthly basis. I think it feels so good after all of it is done and it really is a big stress relieve as well! Next year I want to get someone to pour the concrete in my back yard so I can put a small pool there for the kids and a basket ball hoop. I think it would also be nice for the little kids later to drive on with their tricycles. After that I want to finish my kitchen.. get new dishes and a bigger table and then once the van is paid off (should be toward the end of next year) I want to get a bigger van. One of those 3 bench ones that seats 11. We really need it. It would be neat, cause then we could leave all the car-seats in there too and not have to move everything every time we go somewhere. All in all, life has been really great these last few years. I'm a very happy woman.

December 11th, 2007
Benji peed in the potty this morning. He's been sick for the last few days and when I changed him he was pooping, so I put him on the potty (have in the past a few times, so he's already used to it) and he peed. He also has been taking steps without support. 2 at the most right now, but I'm fully expecting him to walk by Christmas. He's at such a wonderful age right now.. so interactive. He was playing hide and seek with me over the weekend too.. he hid his head behind the couch and when I said "Where is Benji", he took his head out and giggled. Another 7 more months and we'll start trying for another one.

December 23rd, 2007
This will probably be the last entry for the year. It's cold (14F) and we have a ton of snow. Yesterday it was still 34F and it was raining.. by afternoon it turned into snow. David and Mandy didn't go to work today cause they couldn't get out of the driveway. There are a ton of accidents on the road. People just can't drive when it's like that. You would think everyone lived in Florida for the last 10 years. I'm so looking forward to tomorrow. It's going to be fun seeing the kids unwrap their presents. Haley will be at her Mom's house till Wednesday. she already had her Christmas from us on Wednesday and she loved the jacket and bracelette. She said she asked for the bracelett the last two years and didn't get it. I'm glad I got it for her. I've been talking to some old friends of mine and it's really neat to hear from them again after all these years. Gregor is into amateur radio too, so he can help Donny get started. I think Donny will get his license this coming year. I also talked to Willy and I feel bad for his past with his Dad, but like I told him.. if it wasn't for his past he wouldn't be the person he is today. His father sure was an asshole though. I've also talked to some girls from my old class. And of course I'm still talking to Bernhard and Andrea. Wish I could talk to Gerold too. I'm getting closer to being caught up on my picturealbum. I'm only two months behind now. I hope one of these days I'll catch up so I can go back to doing my old books. I think I'm going to move all the presents now and then take pictures of the tree. I guess there are 19 people I'm buying Christmas for and I spent a little over 1800 bucks... ouch!!! The reason I didn't spent more is cause Grandma and his Mom and my Mom are only getting half of what the others are getting. I can't believe how much crap I bought..lol... it's nice though to see the eyes when they see what they got and they're all happy about it. Emily done ticked me off though, cause she keeps thinking she doesn't get as much as other people get.. she got just as much spent on as the others though.